The Bridal Detective

Sebastian “No Can Do” aka The Seabass Monkey 

03/11/04 – 05/03/12

“I was never a dog. I was a Doberman sent here for a season to love you for a lifetime and to protect you for always. Now I am your Angel for an eternity because of the amazing love you endlessly gave.”

You were an amazing ambassador to the breed. Everyone who met you fell in love with you in an instant. You were charismatic and charming; a complete character and a prince to all the ladies who adored you. You were kind and gentle although I know you had your constant need to obsessively annoy your Doberman sister, Mai-Mai.  What I thought was a love/hate relationship between the two of you; you loved her, she hated you, turned out to be quite the bond. Can you believe you actually calmed that sassy butt of hers down? Yes, my handsome baby boy, you did the unthinkable.

After eight short years, you never learned to “shake” and you honestly looked as if I was insane for asking such a request. My bed was never large enough for you as you insisted on using my bum as your pillow, I truly do miss that. You were my shadow and I adored every moment of that even if some days I wondered if you were plotting ways to trip me as you were always underfoot.  I loved how you poked me with your nose when you felt it was the correct time for a pet; as it turns out that was every minute, every hour.

I loved taking you for walks by the marina, I always felt safe with you even though you wouldn’t kill a fly. I know you never understood “hide and go seek”, you almost looked as if it was a cruel joke with me disappearing behind doors and such. I know I played an insane amount of that game with your dober-sister but you would just stand there and whine at the door when I would hide in the pantry; you always ratted me out but I loved you, my little tattle-tale.  And for your information, that was the best place to hide during one of those exhausting games as I could stuff my face while I played; ahhh the fine art of multi-tasking.

While my bum gets cold at night and I no longer hear your whines, I can still feel your love for me. If I said I missed you it would be a complete understatement as my thoughts are always of you and my heart has never been full of so much love. Every tear I have shed has been completely worth it for the love that you gave me in return all of these years.

Your love will live always in my heart,

Your Mommy, Your Shadow

 
PS – For those that sent the thoughtful emails, thank-you so much. Your words were truly sweet and much adored ♥

It’s been a few days since my last post; and while I am known to have wanderlust, I did not abandon chasing all things fabulous for my blog; but my heart  has been elsewhere.

…Eight years ago this May a certain puppy kissed his way into my life. He was the stubbornest thing I had ever laid my eyes on; yet his eyes could melt your heart. Instead of using my mad negotiating skills to adopt all the pretty fur-babies, I had to decide between the two puppies that were using me as their personal jungle-gym, and so I asked “Which one wants to be mine forever?”; my little guy kissed my face instantaneously, and he’s been my constant shadow ever since.

He has been sick all his life; and through that I have learned the practice of unfailing patience, the meaning of endless love, the need for answers to cures and to never accept less than all because of his presence in my life… while the last couple of days have been an emotional roller coaster, today I learn how to be brave and pray for a very wonderful animal.

Dear Sebastian:

We have a lot of walks to go on; and while your mommy loves to chase all things fabulous, I know you have a need to chase the not-so-fabulous neighborhood cats.  There are naps we need to take together and covers that you need to steal. There are a thousand more thunderstorms for you to howl at and a million more nights of sleeping under the bed. There are dogs you must annoy and treats you must beg for. While your rudeness wasn’t always appreciated, it is very much missed; and I am eagerly waiting for your spunk to return because, after all, you are my dog. I have ears that need a few good licks a day, and you need an insane amount of belly rubs every hour, my handsome boy. There are cameras that I need to stalk you with as you’re just too gorgeous for words… but most of all,  we have many more years together, okay?

Love Faithfully,

Your Mommy, Your Shadow

PS – We need a photo like this because you’re every bit worth it, my Seabass Monkey